Embracing TRUST: Lessons and Transformations from a Year of Self-Discovery

My “word” for 2019 was TRUST. Instead of making a typical New Year’s Resolution, a dear friend inspired me to choose a word that would serve as a compass and guardrails for what I wanted to focus on. TRUST made the most sense for where I was in life. I had just come back from a life-changing spiritual retreat. And the greatest realization I had was how much I didn’t TRUST myself.

I didn’t TRUST……my body…my gifts…the universe…

This internal misTRUST was hidden inside me for so long. So what came to the surface was profound areas of life I had been ignoring for far too long.

Looking back at the past 12 months. I am overjoyed in recognizing the small and big shifts, where TRUST has evolved into a new normal. Some of those experiences included harsh lessons to light winks from the universe reminding me that I am TRUSTing.

It all started with TRUSTing my Body…

2019 started off with extreme physical pain that forced me to TRUST and LISTEN to my body. And for the first time, I responded with love instead of anger.  My body desperately needed to be listened to. So this extreme lesson created a new normal as far as what I was willing/able to tolerate.

I no longer feel like I’m fighting against its desires when my body says,  I’m tired, or I need to stretch, or let’s take a break or, this feels so good, or keep going. This new TRUSTing relationship between my mind and my body has empowered me to pay attention to my body’s whispers so it doesn’t have to scream. I’ve never felt healthier or happier since TRUSTing that my body has important information for me to listen to and respect. 

 

Then I started to TRUST my Gifts…

In the past, I often felt like I needed to come into my workplace partnerships with a fancy philosophy, framework or diagnostic tool. Something that made me seem “legitimate” based on external validation. I chose to ditch that thinking last year and instead TRUSTed that I had some powerful gifts to offer the world. So the more I continued to own my gifts and expertise, the more I’ve ignited lasting impact in my partnerships.

I was wasting so much energy wanting to prove myself, instead of trusting that I had nothing to prove! I simply needed to step forward in the confidence of knowing I have everything I need in order to make a difference right now! At the same time, I also had to TRUST that it was important to be open and ready to evolve and change as a result of learning where there is a real opportunity.

This new TRUST in my Gifts has lead SparkVision to nearly triple our revenue, a direct connection to TRUSTing my gifts were worth the investment.

 

Finally, I developed a brand new TRUST in the Universe…

Until the last few years, I never believed in destiny or even the idea that we’re all connected. With lots of healing work in my own life, those things became so crystal clear to me that I knew I had more opportunity to TRUST that the Universe had my back!

I learned about The Law of Attraction which took my understanding of co-creating to an entirely new galaxy.  My business model for prospecting shifted from making a strategic plan to simply expressing my desires and gratitude in daily meditation and mindfulness practices. TRUSTing that if I was clear on what I wanted to feel as a result of my desires, that I just might receive that feeling in a whole different way than I ever imagined. (That’s how the Law of Attraction works!)

For example, I desired to feel like I was making a bigger impact by bringing my Values work to people around the world,  but didn’t know how to. This year, I was offered (I didn’t apply or do any outreach on my own) to be a global audio course teacher on “Knowing + Living Your Values” on Insight Timer with over 10 million users! AND just this month was invited by Thrive Global to write for their 32 million+ visitors!

I had NO IDEA that either of these were possibilities. In fact, I didn’t even know Insight Timer existed until one of their investors reached out to me about it. But I KNEW VERY CLEARLY that I wanted to make feel like I was making a bigger impact with my work globally.

So to put it lightly 2019 provided INCREDIBLE wisdom on how TRUST plays a big role in my life. When I’m open to TRUST with love, divine alignment follows quickly.

I wonder how you gained or lost trust in yourself in 2019? What might be the wisdom you received in that reflection?