Is It Okay to Cry at Work? What Happened When I Stopped Hiding My Emotions
Have you ever had so much pent-up grief, anger, and sorrow that no matter how hard you tried to “button it up,” it came pouring out of you? Like your floodgates didn’t simply open— they blew off the hinges?
Welp! That was me last week.
I walked into Miraval (my seasonal on-call role as an equine facilitator), and the second my colleague asked me if I was okay, it was the endgame for me.
Tears poured out of my eyes, and I mustered, “No, I’m not okay. Moving through some trauma this morning. And I’m feeling overwhelmed.”
She responded:
“I’m so sorry. Do you need anything?”
The old me would have immediately said something like, “I’ll be okay. I just need time. Sorry for being like this. If I seem off today, now you know why.”
But I had decided that in the final moments of the Year of the Snake ?, I wasn’t going to hold on to parts of me that don’t serve me. I had to shed that shit if I ever wanted to change.
So for the first time in my life, I said to a colleague, “I could really use a hug.”
Within seconds, she held me while I wept in her arms. Without prompting, she told me I am a kind, worthy, lovable person.
When my other colleague walked in on us, he asked what was up. A simple, “family trauma flare-up” was all I had to say to be completely understood and supported.
Shedding the old stories that were hammered into me like it’s…
- ⛔…inappropriate to cry at work
- ⛔…unprofessional of me to bring my personal issues up
- ⛔…making people uncomfortable with my sensitivity
- ⛔…too emotional, and I was being a crybaby
When I embraced the SHED, it allowed me to look at my patterns. Because, let’s be real: family trauma flare-ups are “normal” for me…my whole life. But I didn’t have to act like the same person anymore.
I noticed how I’d protect my hell in the past.
Like: isolating myself in depression, ruminating on my trauma history, suppressing my basic needs, and suffering silently – hoping someone would read my mind and save me.
It felt so damn good to say, “F! That! I’m NOT going down like this anymore.”
One more shed for the Year of the Snake, right? Well, if there was ever one for me to let go of, this is it.
And let me tell you, the ripple effect has been wild.
Once again, the universe had my back and was proving to me that anything is possible when you choose it on purpose. Instead of slipping back into default low-vibration programming.
The day that started as a ?storm transmuted into one of the greatest healings and opportunities to take my power back.
One. More. Time.
Event after event became divine intervention. Giving me the perfect conditions and container to stop being a victim and start to be authentic about my truth, without it taking me down.
The more I spoke up, the more congruent I was inside and out.
I was given example after example of how everything is not only going to be okay, it’s exactly what I need to experience true freedom.
Enter: The Year of the Fire Horse ??
We are on the cusp of galloping into a time of Freedom, Destiny, Power, and Momentum.
This week, we step into a cosmic event that only happens every 60 years! Likely, this is the only one you’ll get in this lifetime.
It’s a potent time to transmute your fears into freedom. Your doubts into destiny. Your pain into power. And your mess into momentum.
Now that I work as an equine facilitator, I’ve seen it over and over again with people from all over the world: Horses are healers.
Their medicine is potent and has the power to rewild us into our most authentic selves. When we tune into our truth, they mirror back what they see.
Horses invite us to choose to be brave and change. Or stay stuck and suffer. Pretty incredible, right?
Want to experience a taste of that kind of medicine? I’m hosting a free Year of the Fire Horse ?? livestream on Wednesday, February 18th, at noon MT.
Join me, Ollie and Norby here
You’ll get to enjoy more insights about this Year of the Horse ahead, how to harness your power now, and feel the grounding presence of horses as healers.
Tell me: what do you have left to shed so you can experience true freedom in the year ahead? It’s not too late, let me guide you at my upcoming free livestream.
Let’s ride bareback and bridleless into the possibilities together, my friend!
P.S.
I have lots of awesome offerings to celebrate and harness the power of the fire horse this year. Are you ready to join me? Start by joining my free Year of the Fire Horse Livestream!
